Here is the clifnotes version of our phone call:
C: hi...it's 10--I can't believe you're awake?
E: funny, i just brushed my teeth...so i'm barely awake (there may have been a pause to take my retainer out).
C: How are you? How was your day?
E: (I START SOBBING)
C: That bad?
E: No...It was good. It's just that sometimes (start sobbing again) I think people forget to ask me that--or if they do they don't wanna know (continue sobbing)...and you actually do.
C: Oh, Em. Wow.
E: (Sobs are slowing subsiding) I'm so sorry...I can't believe I started crying...I'm mortified.
C: But don't you feel better? I think we should laugh and cry everyday. Then tells me to watch this speech (Jimmy Valvano's 1993 ESPY speech) which I did this morning and it resulted in more tears.
I really don't normally cry or get emotional. If I do, it isn't a public event. Also, I normally don't go so in depth in coversations with a guy friend (i.e. people don't normally want to know about my day when they ask)...but I'm glad I did. I'm so lucky to have someone like Clay in my life. Someone who genuinely cares about me without wanting anything in return. I wish I could be more like him in respect to friendships...and I wish I could cry and laugh a little more.