Tuesday, February 19, 2013

A little heartbreak

I found the above quote on Pinterest the other day. It's Perfect
2012 was NOT my year...Especially the last quarter.
I've begun this post over and over again, and I'm finally to a point where I'm ready to share...

2 days prior to the beginning of finals I had my first (and hopefully last) broken heart. I still have a text I sent to my older brother right after everything happened stating: "I didn't know I could hurt so big..." 

I think all my friends were waiting (some still are) for a meltdown, heartache, or sadness. I was sad. I gave myself one day to be sad. Instead of studying for finals, I cried. I had a massage--which I cried through, I went shopping with my dad, went on a long run--cried during that (which is pretty impressive), went to church, ate Ben and Jerrys while watching Lifetime (and crying)...and went to bed.

The next day I woke up, and life went on. I'm not saying I didn't hurt any less, or that I didn't still have hope, but I made a conscious decision that I wasn't willing for something which was now the past (instead of the future as I hoped) to have any negative effect on my future.  As Olivia Pope said on Scandal: "Work helps. So does exercise. Stuff that numbs you, keeps you from thinking too much. Dating also helps, but it also helps to remember that he hates you and it helps to try to hate him too..." A little melodramatic, but I agree with the premise of that quote.

Not only did life go on, but astonishing things have happened. I'm back to being my "old self" as so many have reminded me. I'm ambitious, confident, happy, comfortable in my own skin, outgoing, driven... I've remembered so many reasons of why it is important to love myself, and how to do so. And with this 'new' state of mind, my 2013 so far has been a helluva ride.

I've bought a house. I had dinner with a Supreme Court Justice (more on this once I get the pictures back). I argued in front of an attorney from the International Court of Justice...and she liked me. I'm busier than I've ever been, working more hours than I ever have, I'm surrounded by incredible people, and coming into so many amazing opportunities. I honestly wouldn't trade this part of my life for anything. Life is good. Actually, life is beautiful. 

So like the quote says...Hang in there, and astonishing things will happen... I can't wait to see what's next.

Thanks for Reading!


  1. Amazing post! Thanks for being so real!! Go you! :) Psalm 147:3 and Exodus 15:1-3! Been studying these lately and though I'd share!

  2. Yay! I'm so so happy for you! This post warms my heart--- which I very much needed today.

  3. I love reading your posts, because you're always SO positive! I'm so glad you're focusing on the positives! I KNOW you will meet an amazing man--you deserve it, girl! Happy Tuesday!

  4. Great post! So glad everything is back on track and you are back to being you. You have so many exciting things coming up. I can't wait to see and hear more about your house!

  5. Ooh I'm so sorry that your heart is/was hurting so much. I've been there, I totally understand. Props to you for giving yourself one day (that sounds kind of productive in a weird way) and then going on. I've been so sad that I couldn't get out of bed for multiple days. But that is probably the difference between you and I. You are awesome and I also hope for you that that was the last heartbreak you'll have <3

  6. You're such a strong, talented woman -- good things are happening and will continue to happen to you. I can't wait to hear about them! xo