What's In A Number
I've had friends through college and even in law school shoot for that perfect 4.0 GPA. My older brother told me that 25 years old was the worst year of his life...so I have that to look forward to. I hear commercials all the time that 40 is the new 30...and 60 is the new 40. I know people who will go through heck and back to fit into their size 24 jeans. I don't like numbers...and I got on the scale last night. Brilliant.
Now, I really dislike numbers. I weighed _ _ _._ at the end of the day. I've never weighed myself at the end of the day...and I can totally see why. I'm rationalizing the you-know-what out of that number. Clearly it has to be a mistake--I ingested too much salt, I didn't drink enough water, I didn't go to the bathroom before using the scale...Trust me, the past half hour has proven to me that I am one of the most creative people I know--or the best at rationalizing things that cannot or should not be rationalized.
Am I sad? No. Am I basing my self worth on this number? Absolutely not. Is it a good wake up call? Yes. Yes. Yes. Unfortunately this wake up call just brings about more numbers. I need to want to lose _ _._ pounds in _ _ days, or in _ months...and to meet that goal I should lose _ pounds a week. This cyclical 'game', for lack of a better word can go on and on.
Am I going to start counting every calorie that I ingest...(insert evil laughter)...you wish. However, I do want to be a lot more attentive to my workouts, my weight, and maybe even that oh-so-coveted size that I wouldn't mind fitting into :)
So friends...on this fabulous Friday...what's your number? ;)
Thanks for reading!
Ugh, I know the feeling. I only weigh myself first thing in the morning before eating anything and in the nude, haha! I try not to get too consumed by the number (though that can be tough at times) and rather try to see how I feel when I look in the mirror or try on clothes!
ReplyDeleteWhen I started law school I noticed I gained weight... Less time to hit the gym combined with never-ending stress and snacking while studying... It was a bad combo for me. BUT... I finally realized that I didn't like stressing over the scale and I stopped weighing myself. I literally cannot remember the last time I got on a scale. I still work out and eat as healthy as I can/want to... I just go by how I feel, how my clothes fit, and how I look to myself. I am SO much happier, you have no idea... I am no longer a slave to that number on the scale and I love it!! I think the change started when I was in Italy last summer and embraced their way of life... They don't stress about weight!! I naturally fluctuate A LOT... So ignoring the scale has been great for me, my stress level, and my self esteem :) It's not for everyone, but definitely something to try!!
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